Been having to think about careers for one of my modules at the moment. Not that I mind – it’s relief not to have lots of testing variables and looking up journal articles for a minute and focus on my life.
But I really dont know what I want to do when I leave uni. The lecturers and uni people seem to assume that we come to uni knowing what we want to do and that we need a psycgology degree to get there. I dont think that – I think that I found psychology an interesting subject – not all interesting but many bits of it and I wanted to study it and not go work in a supermarket after A – levels.
What I really want to do is do something that I’m passionate about, that makes a difference in the world, or makes a point to people, stands out and is good. And get paid for it of course. We’re sposed to think about this now – I’m not the best at planning ahead. I love living in the moment. I’ll cross that bridge when I come to it.
What does everyone else want to be when they grow up?
Another thing – I just need a chat with someone and computers are good because they dont answer back, or judge you, or think you’re weird. Some people I see a lot are just getting on my nerves a lot. I feel like such a selfish cow almost – for all I know they could have worse problems than just worrying about work and rowing and nonsense. But I feel I’m being ignored a lot and criticsed for just trying to be nice.
I know we’re all different and we all have different ways of being nice and talkingto friends but I feel sometimes like I’m the only honest, truthful, moral person in the world.
I’m sorry to sound like I’m blowing my own trumpet but it’s true. I find it very difficult to lie, or be two-faced to people. I find that it’s so much easier and nicer to just be me and be fai and kind to people and you’ll get it back. If they dont like it – stuff em. But lately it seems like – why bother? Half of the people I know are so fake, or do things that I really cant see what would posess them to do?
Sorry for the rant – if that didnt make sense I apolagise. I just dont feel I cant have a proper moan to anyone without sounding like a whiny cow.